Sierra went up to her room almost immediately after coming home. She rocked her daughter to sleep. She was just really sad. She wanted to say yes to him. She was not sure she should. She felt that this could not happen. She was shocked that he did not see it that way. Perhaps he was not thinking straight. Off sense, he was usually very stoic but not on this. She was surprised by that. That was not like him.
She found it hard to sleep. She put the baby in her crib. She tried to get to sleep. She could not stop thinking about the pastor. She wished she could say yes. She really did not think she could. She finally drifted off to sleep.
He went home feeling defeated. He never expected it to go like this. He came home and went inside. He imagined how he thought that the night would go. he imagined an amazing night. He imagined walking her to her door. He imagined telling her how he felt. He imagined her crying. She would tell Ashley about the night.
That was not how it happened. he did not fully understand it. He knew age was reluctant because of her past. Why couldn’t she get passed it? He had gotten past it. He had trouble getting to sleep but finally did.
They usually communicated often during the week. He decided to give her space. He figured that perhaps they needed time apart.
She worked and spent time with her daughter. She had decided to keep a professional distance from the pastor. She hoped that they could move back to a pastor, parishioner relationship. She was not sure if that was possible.
She had become friends with a lady that attended a more evangelical Baptist church. ” what church do you go to? ” Lisa asked. “Gospel Baptist church!” Sierra answered. “Oh!” Lisa answered. “It’s a good church. I was saved while attending there” Sierra said.
“They are very strict. ” Lisa said. ” I don’t find them strict but I ding really have anything to compare them to. They are all very nice. ” Sierra told her.” you should come to to.my church. We have really good child care. We have modern music. We do a lot of special functions. You and Naveah would love it. ” Lisa said.
When Lisa first suggested this, she had no intention of leaving g.b.c and going to her church. The g.b.c style of the church was all she knew. She knew nothing of the seeker-sensitive model employed by many evangelical churches. She loved g.b.c. to go somewhere else was unthinkable.
After the coffee date with the pastor, she started to consider going somewhere else. She felt maybe she needed to be separated from the pastor for a time. She was not sure.
“I am thinking of looking into other churches!” She told her sister Ashley. “You got to be kidding. Why?” Ash said. “There are churches that still stand on the word of God that are more user-friendly,” she said. “Siera do you hear self? What is your running form? What is going on? ” Ashley said.
“G.b.c is not the one true church. ” Sierra said. “True but God used this church to bring you to him. Then he used that church to bring me to him. As long as you live in this community why not go here?” She asked. ” your right. ” Sierra said. “You got to get a handle on this. Don’t turn back. Don’t drift away.” She instructed her.
She had not talked to the pastor since Sunday night. She and Ashley rode together. They parked in the driveway. They got out. They walked towards the church. They went inside. Sierra held the baby.
They greeted various people. They went into the sanctuary. She was dreading seeing the pastor. She saw him walk into the sanctuary. He was talking to various people. Maybe he would run out of time and start the service without talking to her.
He did come over to her. The baby smiled at him.he smiled back. “Good evening siera.” She said. “Hello, pastor.” She said. “How are you tonight?” He asked. “I am good. How are you?” Did she ask? “I am good,” he said. “Good i am glad to hear that.” She said. “It is good to see you.” He said.”it is good to see you pastor” she replied.
After that, he went to the front of the church to start the service. She was relieved. She was happy that that was over with. It was hard to still attend the church but she knew that her sister was right. She was supposed to attend this church. She was being taught the word of God. She knew that. she would grin and bear it. she hoped that the awkwardness would subside.
After the service, she hoped to be able to leave right away. Having a young child make the difficult. There is getting her ready to go. Everyone wants to see her. She is the official church baby. Sierra wants to get out of the church and head home as soon as possible. She knew that would not be possible.
The pastor stood at the door greeting people as they left. She considered seeking out through the basement but decided not to. She And Ashley and her daughter came to the pastor. “It’s good to see you.” He said. “It good to see you.” She said. They shocked ha da. He shocks the babies hand.
Finally, they were outside. They went into the car. They were off. They headed home. She was happy about that. She was not quite ready to face him. She hoped that things would go back to normal between them even if it was a new normal.
” how are things between you and sieera,” his sister asked over the phone. “Nonexistent. It is really awkward between us. She is not supportive of a relationship. I don’t know if i should pursue her or not. I don’t know what she wants. I don’t know if she is turning away hoping i will catch her or if she really wants me to back off. ” he told Marissa.
” what do you think she wants?” Marissa asked. “I don’t know. I don’t know much about her before she was saved. She does not discus it and i understand. Old things have passed away. I have a feeling she was boy crazy. I suspect she wanted a guy to fill that void. I suspect that now that she has find joy in Christ ,she does not want anything else. At the same time she feels her sin has disqualified her from being Married. I wish i knew what she really wanted. ” he told her sister.
” she wants you to pursue her. Even if she has convinced herself that she does not. ” she said. “You sure?” He asked. “I see the way she looks at you. She is afraid. She really believes that she can’t or should not. She is convinced it is a sin to mary you. She wants you to convince her it is not. ” she said.
“How do i do that ?” He asked.”talk to her. Realy talk to her. Have a long talk. Take her concerns seriously. Let her know that you want her in your family. Do you believe in your heart of hearts that It is Gods will for you mary her, ?” Marissa asked.
“Without a doubt. ” he said. “Tell her that. Make her understand that. If you don’t you are going to lose her. I don’t think that is what you want.” She is him.
“No its not. I fell in love the first bight i met her. She was unsaved then so it would not have been right. I knew she was the one. Just like dad knew that mom was the one. I waited. I knew.” He told her. “The first time I met her,I could tell. Work with her. Work this thing out. ” she told him. “Ok. ” he said.
“I have a feeling there will be a wedding soon.” She said. “I hope so.” He said.
Next up the pastor is gone to his brother’s graduation. Sierra thinks things over.Posted onJuly 12, 2019Categorieschurch visatorTagsbaby, baptist, baptist fiction, baptist romance, bible, christian, Christian fiction, Christian romance, Christianity, church, church members, church service, churches, cofee, couple, donuts, extended family, familyLeave a commenton Church visitor part 11
the pastor ask sierra out for cofee
The pastor was deeply affected by what he heard. He cared for Sierra deeply. He did not want her to feel like that. He took time to pray and reflect. He decided to talk to her.
On that Sunday, he went up to her. “Sierra. ” he said.”hello pastor. “She said. “Sierra, would you like to go out for coffee tonight after church?” He asked.”i would love to. “She answered.” Excellent. ” he said.”sounds good,” she said.
She was surprised that he asked her to coffee. He had been distant for the last few days. The conversation she had with Ashley had been on her mind.
In the afternoon, Sierra put the baby down for a nap. She sat down on the couch.” the pastor asked me to coffee after the service” Sierra said. “That’s great. ” Ashley said. “It is out of the blue.” She said. “You two have gone out for coffee before. ” Ashley commented.”i know that,” she said.
After the service, the pastor shook hands with various church members. after the people had left, the pastor and Sierra heard out. He set up navi’s car seat in his car. They got in. They drove to the coffee shop.
“How was your day?” He asked. “It was good. Service we great today. Had a relaxing afternoon. How was your day?” Did she ask? “It was good. I thought the services went well today. I had a relaxing afternoon. I usually take a short nap then put the finishing touches for the evening service. ” he said.
He parked the car in the lot. He turned off the car. They exited the vehicle. He got the baby. They walked to the coffee shop. It seemed awkward. She noticed they seemed off. There was unspoken tension between them. They went in.
The baby always got attention. She was a big hit wherever she went. At first, Sierra was not used to all the attention but she got used to it. Ahe found it hard to be a single mom. She got a lot of dirty looks. She got the occasional comments from busybodies. She would be friendly. She brushed it off. Today she suspected people thought that they were a family.
He had siera and the baby sit down. He ordered the coffee and donuts. He came over with the orders. He sat them on the table. He distributed the drink. He handed her hers. Then he sat down.
“We need to talk,” he said in a blunt matter of fact tone. “Oh!” She said. She had no idea what he was referring to. “I would like to begin a relationship with you that will one day lead to marriage.” He said.
“Pastor no. I know you like me. I tried to pretend you did not. I know how you feel about me. I love it. You are the kindest sweetest man i know but we can’t. I will drag you down. I will drag down your reputation. I would not be a good friend if i did not say no.” She said.
“Siera, i understand where you’re coming from. I see your point. At first, it will be hard. There will be some who won’t understand. Some won’t agree with our relationship. In five years it will matter less and less. In the time it will be part of your biography. People will look at it as evidence of Gods grace. ” he said.
“It does not seem fair pastor. You played by the rules. You like Daniel purposed in your heart to be morally pure. I did not try. I made no effort. You will always be reminded of that fact. You need to find A wife that is like you. Someone who likes you worked hard at maintaining purity and integrity. I am not that person. ” she said.
“I judge you differently then you judge yourself. You judge yourself by how you were before you were saved. You are not that person. I love who you are. ” he said.
“You say that now. I am still new. i am new. I am exciting. What happens when i become old news? What happens when the new car smell wears off. What happens when i became familiar? When my conversion story is no longer romantic? When the singer part drowns out the saved by grace part? Find someone worthy of you. Find an independent Baptist wife. ” she said.
“I already have,” he told her. ” i am not one for you,” she said. “How do you know?” He asked. “The one for you will not have known a man.navi’s dad was not the first. ” she said. “I am not surprised. It is not a deal breaker,” he said. “It is for me,” she said.
“It’s should not be. That action does not define you. It was before you were saved. I don’t hold it against it.” He said. “You will. It’s easy now. Eventually, it will hit you. ” she said.
“Do you not trust me?” He asked. “Of course i trust you,” she said. “Then trust me. Look i dont make snap decisions. I take an hour organizing my sock drawer. I have thought this through. ” he said. “I am not right for you pastor. I am not your type,” he said. “How do you know? What do you think my type is?” Did he ask? “I dont know. Someone who Grew up in a fundamental Baptist family. Someone conservative. ” she said.
“You are pretty conservative. You dress modestly. You keep to yourself. Hard working. I don’t see any issues. I judge you my who you are today. Your not a clone of me. I don’t want to marry myself. As long as your living by biblical principles, there is room for differences. ” he said.
“I don’t see it working not forever. We try it and it fails will we be able to still be friends? I don’t want to risk that.” She said.
“I can’t change your mind?” He asked. “No. You can’t. I am sorry. I have my daughter to think about. I won’t have her getting attached to you and then you walk away. ” she said.”you think i would walk away?”He asked. “I won’t put you in that position,” she said.
“Ok,” he said. Things got really quiet between them. After a time they got up And left the coffee shop. They walked to the car.he drove her and the baby home. He parked. He got the car seat. He brought the baby inside.
She walked him to his car.” i an sorry this night did not go how you planned it to. ” she said. “Look, Sierra. I overheard your conversation with Ashley. I snuck out so you would not see me. Sierra, you are exactly what i want. I would not change anything about you. There is no one else. There will never be anymore else. ” he said.
“I can’t do this tonight,” she said. “Ok. If you want to talk call me” he said. “Ok.” She said. She went inside. He got in his car and drove away.
“You ok? You look upset?” Ashly asked.”i am ok. ” she said. She picked up the baby and went to her room.
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Sierra and the pastor seemingly go there separate ways.Posted onJuly 7, 2019Categorieschurch visator, UncategorizedTagsan overheard conversation, baptist fiction, baptist romance, christian, Christian fiction, Christian romance, church service, cofee, fiction, parishioner, pastor, romance, single momLeave a commenton Church visitor part ten
matt and sierra grow closer . siera is still reluctant to date him.
The pastor drove back to Morrison. He called Sierra. “Hi, are you back?” She asked. “I just pulled in. ” he said.”welcome back pastor,” she said.”thanks. It’s good to be back. ” he said. “I bet. Do you want to come over for supper tonight or are you still suffering from car lag?” She asked. “I can come over. I am going to take a nap. I will be fine by then. ” he said. She chuckled.
“Ok. I will see you then. Get some rest.” She said. “I will,” he told her. He took a nap. He unpacked his car. He then took a shower and got ready to see Sierra. He put on a blue flannel shirt and jeans. He got in his car and drove to her apartment.
Sierra shared an apartment with her sister. The pastor had a rule. He would never be alone with a woman who was not a relative. If Ashley was there, he was ok with it.
He parked his car in her driveway. He got out. Sierra and ash came out. Sierra wore a white dress shirt and denim skirt. She was barefoot. She invited him in. “I got something for you. It’s from my sister,” he told her.
He gave it to you. She opened the package. It was a picture frame. It was a picture of the pastor and Navi. She smiled.”tell her to thank you for me. I love it. ” she said. She showed it to her sister. Ashly smiled.
She made a shepherds pie. He loved it she made cheesecake. He helped her clear the table. Then they sat in the living room. He held the baby. She giggled when he made faces at her.
“Pastor, are you and i friends?” Sierra asked. “Of course we are. ” he said.” Can we be friends? You’re the pastor. In a way aren’t you management and me just an hourly worker?” She asked. he chuckled..” It’s not how it is supposed to be. In Christ, all are equal. We are all part of the body of Christ. We all make up the church. Ephesians say he gave some elders for the equipping of the Sants..in the early church, Paul and his team would see people saved..they would gather. The church members were saved and displayed at roughly the same time. It would become evident that there were some who were gifted to lead and were spiritual mature men. They were part of the community. They were not from seminaries. They were one if there own. I don’t subscribe to the clergy-laity divide. To answer your question yes we can be friends.” He said.
“Ok. Just making sure,” she said she had come to expect a long explanation from him. He liked to give explanation.he was expository. He liked oratory. She had gotten used to it. She was careful to ask questions .she knew she would probably get a monologue.
Christmas season gave way to the new year. Winter was in full swing. The pastor checked in on Sierra frequently. He plowed out her driveway. He would not accept money but did accept super.
They became close friends. They seem to become closer and closer. The little one loved the pastor. She smiled when she saw him. He was the closest thing she had to a daddy.
He was not ready to date her but he thought they were heading in that direction. It seemed inevitable. He looked forward to it.
Winter turned to spring. The baby was crawling and becoming a toddler. She was getting bigger. The weather was getting warmer.
The pastor planned on one day asking her out. He had no time table. In his mind, they were predating. He assumed she knew that. They seemed to be moving closer together. They sat together at the valentines banquet at the church. They went out for coffee. They hung out at the playground. He never mentioned dating let alone marriage. She just assumed that they were friends. Food friends but just friends.
One day he came over her house. She was outside with her sister and her daughter. The baby was crawling on the floor. He overheard her conversation.
“Are you and the pastor a couple?” Ashley asked. She found that question absurd.” of course not. ” she said. “He likes you. “She said. ” not like that. He does not see me as a wife. I am hardly a pastor’s wife material. He does not casually date.” she said. “He really likes you. I think that he would marry you in a heartbeat.” She said.
“Maybe. I could never ask that of him. ” Sierra said. “He loves you. Any stranger off the street could see that,” she said. “I could not ask him. He has worked so hard to build a reputation of integrity and good character. I would tarnish that. He would have a wife who did not have the same reputation. He played by the rules. I did not even try. I would not be a good friend if I dated him. He could do so much better than me. He should marry a girl that grew up Baptist. ” she said.
He heard all this. He went to his car and wept. He cried a lot. He could not believe she thought that. He wanted to go and give her the biggest hug ever. He never looked before he leaped. He went home. He cried a little.he could not believe she thought that. He hated that she thought that. How could she think that? He valued her. Why could she not see how much she meant to the church and to him personally?
He called his sister Marissa. “I kinda stepped in it is.” He told her. “Oh, what happened?” She asked. “Sierra and i have spent a lot of Time together. I assumed she knew i was considering something deeper and more permanent. We have been pretty much inseparable since i got back from Christmas vacation. I overheard her saying that she does not feel like she could date me. I thought we were both on this road together. ” he told her.
“You should talk to her. Talk it over. “She advised him. ” i dont rush into things. Do you think its time?” He asked.”do you think that there is a chance that she is not Gods will for you?” Marissa asked. “I have prayed about it. No, i don’t see anything i would consider a deal breaker. I have heavily scrutinized her. I have looked for red flags. ” he said.
“There are times to be cautious. There are also times to rise and build. Is this that time matt?” She asked. “I think I know what i need to do.” He said. “I think you do too. It’ss funny i knew how you feel Bout her the day i met her. I saw the way you responded to her. I think you have been in love with her the moment she came to your church. ” she told him. He knew she was right.
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Matt asks sierra out for cofee after sunday night service. They have a heart to heart talk .Posted onJuly 4, 2019Categorieschurch visatorTagsbaptist fiction, baptist romance, bible, character, children, christian, Christian fiction, Christian romance, Christianity, church, church members, church service, integrity, newer convert, pastor, single mom, single pastor, spring, winter monthsLeave a commenton Church visitor part 9
the pastor goes to see his family for family. Sierra snd him keep in touch
It was Christmas time. The days were shorter and were colder. The pastor was getting ready to go on vacation.
“Good morning pastor,” Sierra said. “Morning Serra. Hi, Navi!” He said. He picked her up. She loved how he was with her. “So when are you off?” She asked. “Tomorrow morning. I am going to leave whenever. There is no rush. Mom wants me there by super but I should get there before then. ” he said.
“Oh good. Your mom wants you thereby super?” Sierra asked. He chuckled. “Yes, she does. When i was in college, my mom always insisted when i came home i be home by supper.” He told her. “That’s good i hope you have a good visit,” she told her. “Oh thank you,” he told her.
“You excited about navi’s first Christmas?” He asked. She smiled. “I am very excited. My brothers and older sisters have not met her yet. I only get to see my brother Jason once a year. It will be good. ” she said. “I am glad,” he told her.
After the evening service, Sierra came up to him. She was holding the baby. “So, i got something for you and the baby. It’s a little something. ” he said.”thank you. ” she said.
“No problem. I will be back on Friday,” he told her. “Drive safely.” She told him. “I will. My brother Tom says I Drive like a grandma,” he said. “I was thinking a great grandmother but yes,” she said. He chuckled. “Yes, that’s true. I will be careful,” he promised her. “Oh ok,” she said.
She gave him a card. He thanked her. He picked up navi.” you be good while i am gone ok. I see you when i get back. ” he hugged her. He kissed her cheek. He put her in a car seat. He gave Sierra a hug.
That night he sat down on the couch. he opened the envelope from Sierra. She left a picture of her daughter. She was smiling. He smiled. There was a Christmas card there. There was a note attached to the card. He took out the note.
“Dear Pastor. I want to wish you the merriest of Christmas. I hope you have a restful and relaxing Christmas break. I hope you have a great time with your family. Navi and i will miss you while you are gone. ”
“This Christmas i understand the meaning behind it. I knew about the North of Christ at Christmas but it did not mean anything to me. It means so much more this year. I will be thinking of you while you’re gone. Sierra.”
He cried. He really cared about her. He was not sure of a relationship could work. He had never been close to a female like he was close to her.
The next day he drove to his parent’s house. It was a four-hour drive. When he pulled into his parent’s driveway he texted Sierra telling her that he made it. She was so glad he did.
He had a good time with his family. He was close to his family. He was enjoying spending time with his parents and siblings. It was Christmas day. They had opened parents and had dinner. They played football then were fellowshipping. Some of the younger kids were taking naps.
His phone rang. The pastor checked the caller is. “I should take this!” The pastor said. He got up and pushed the button to accept the call. “Hey, Sierra!” He said. “Hi, pastor!” She said. “How was your Christmas?” He asked. “It was great. Navi was a big hit. She and my brother Hayden are best friends. She is the star of the show. This is the first time our family is together in one place for a few years. I am having a good time” she told him.
“I am so glad. Did you open the one from me?” He asked. “I did. I love it. I am going to send you a pic of her in your school onesie. She loves the bear. ” she told him. “Oh i am so glad,” he said. “Thank you.” She said. “My pleasure,” he said.
“How is your Christmas?” Sierra asked. “It is going great. I am having a great time catching up with the family. We got some family pictures. ” he said. “I am glad to hear that,” she said.
“Well, i don’t keep you any longer. I wanted to wish you a Mary Christmas,” she said. “I am glad you did. I wish you a Merry Christmas. “He said. ” have a great rest of your Tie there. I miss you ” she said “i miss you. Hug navi for me. ” he said. “I will,” she said.
After they hung up, his family gave him a look except for Marissa. “What!” He asked. “Who was that?” His sister Alesha asked. “That was Sierra. She is a single mom. She was saved a short time ago. Her daughter was three days old when she first came. ” i said. “I got to meet her. She is really nice. Her baby is a sweetheart. ” Marissa said.
“She is just someone at the church?” HIs sister Kathy asked? ” everyone in the church is important. ” he said. ” should we start getting ready for a wedding?” His mom asked. “We are just friends. “He said. ” does any of us actually say believe it?” His brother tom asked.
He had thought about it. He has wondered about it. She had said she would never marry. did she mean that? Was she hoping someone would press her to marry him? He was not ready to communicate that just yet. He thought marrying her was a possibility.
Next up the pastor and Sierra become closer. He thinks Marriage is inevitable. Sierra is not there yet.Posted onJune 30, 2019Categorieschurch visator, UncategorizedTagsbaptist, Christmas, extended family, family. visiting family, home for holidays, independent fundamental Baptist, ongoing story, pastor, romance, serial, single mom, single pastor, vacationLeave a commenton Church visitor part 8
Nakesha was stunned by all that had happened that day. She went home stunned. She kicked off her flip flops. She became a Christian and got engaged. She had a Bible in the house. It was a cheap edition of a King James version. She read a bit in rooms. She prayed a bit after.
She slept well that night. She got up the next morning. She was eating breakfast. After breakfast, her phone rang. “Hello,” she said. “Good morning its mat. I wanted to say hi. ” he said.”thanks for calling. ” she said.
“How are you doing?” He asked. “My back is bothering me. It’s a coming occurrence. It has been bad. Other than that I’m ok. I read my Bible. ” she told him.
“Good. I glad,” he said. “I am having a pretty good morning,” she said. “I am glad to hear that. Are you free tonight? I got someone I would like you to meet?” He said. “I am free tonight,” she replied. ‘Awesome. Can you ready by four?” He asked. “Yes I can,” she said. “Awesome. I will see you then,” he said. “Ok,” she said.
The pastor and his kids went to the mall to find an engagement ring for nakesha. The girls helped him pick out a ring. There was one he liked and the girls like it as well.
She had a few skirts and dresses. She had a pink skirt. It was one of her favorites. She thought was cute. She thought that he would like it too. She put on a gray t-shirt. she put on flip flops. she put her hair in a ponytail. She was ready before he was to arrive.
She sat on the porch. She saw the van head her way. The van parked. She smiled. The van parked. She walked to the van and opened the door. He smiled when he saw her. She got in. “This is for you.” He said. He pulled out a small box. He took out the engagement ring. He placed the ring on her finger. She stared at it. “It’s beautiful thank you,” she told him.
They drove. They arrived at the home of Patrick and Regena Carlson. Matt and Kesha got his out of the van. They were greeted by the Carlson. “This is pat and Regena Carlson. There son rick daughters Lisa Cassie and Carly. This is my furnace nikesha.” He said. “It is good to meet you,” she said.
She was thrilled that he referred to her as his finance. she realized that he meant what he said. He would stay by her side as he promised. They eat super together. The food was great. Regina was a great cook.
After dinner, Regina invited her to her study. “Do Kesha, I understand you’re a new believer?” She asked. “Yes, that is correct.” She said.” Matt mentioned your struggle with depression and suicidal thoughts?” She asked.”yes.” She said.
“I grew up in a Christian home. One side if my family were all pastors, the other were missionaries.i made a profession of faith at a young age. I was a happy bubbly kid. As a teen I got depressed..i would be withdrawn. My family chilled it up to teenage years. I was always sensitive and I was a perfectionist. I feared failure. I seemed to have grown out of it but I hid it. I had ups and downs. When I met pat, there was the euphoria of meeting him. I thought I would be ok now. We got married. He pastored a church. I became pregnant. We were a happy family. Life was good. my second pregnancy had some complication. ” she said.
“It made things worse. I grinned and bore it. I was sad. I did not know why. Nothing worked. Try as I could there was no solving that. It was everything, struggle with sin. Feeling I was not good enough. Everyday struggles.it all added up. I decided I wanted to go and be with the lord. My husband and i and the kids were supposed to go to a family camp at a Christian campground. I told my husband I was not feeling well. They went on without me. I slit my wrist. ” she said.
“He was driving when he got the sense that something was wrong. he drives back home. he told our kids to stay in the car and not leave. He found me and called 911. They were able to prevent me from dying. I was in the hospital for a while. Then I was in a psychiatric center for a while. It took me a long time. I try to help or they’re going through it. I do conferences and retreats. I try to council ladies feeling with depression. ” she said.
“How are you now?” Nakisa asked. “I am good. I still have down days. My husband knows what to look for and he knows what to ask. He presses me. Mathew said that you were raped and stabbed. “She said. ” yes. With everything else, I have to deal with pain. ” she said.
“Did you have depression before the attacks?” She asked.”yes I did. “Kesha answered. “Are you on medication for pain?” She asked..”i am but they are concerned about opioid addiction. I am too. I have addiction history in the family. ” she said.
“Pain can affect depression. You will want to watch that. Surround yourself with God’s people. Stay in the word. I will help you anyway i can. I consider my ministry helping ladies through this. Call me anytime. Rely on Mathew.pat and i have known him since he was a boy. He interned at our church. He is like a son to us. You can trust him. ‘” she said.
After a while, they came out.they all fellowship together. They got in the car. “I really like Regina. ” she told Matt. “I am glad. I think the world of that whole family. “He said. ” thank you for tonight.” She said.
He dropped her off at her apartment. She gave him a great big hug. He made sure she made it inside. He drove home.
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Nakesha and matt and the family continue to hang out. She goes to his church and meets his sister.Posted onJune 27, 2019CategoriesinterventionTagsbaptist fiction, baptist romance, Christian fiction, Christian romance, Christianity, church, counseling, dipreson, engagement, family, fiction, independent fundamental Baptist, pastor, suicide, widowerLeave a commenton Intervention: new direction.
a pastor prevents a suicide attempt.
It was a tradition that pastor matt take his girl out for ice cream once a month. Matt was a single dad of three daughters. His daughters were six, four and two. Matt was the pastor of an independent fundamental Baptist church and a widower.
Matt loaded the girls into the van. He headed to the ice cream store. He saw something out of the ordinary. A young lady wore a white t-shirt and jeans and was barefoot. He parked. He got out.
“Are you ok?” He asked. “Please go away!” She said.”you know i can’t do that if you’re going to do what i think you’re going to do! ” he said. “Please leave me alone!” she said. She was getting ready to jump off the bridge.
“Look right now life seems unlivable but things change. Perspectives change. How you feel now won’t be how you feel later.” He said. “I can’t do it. I don’t want this anymore.” She said. “Taking your own life is not the answer. You just pass on the pain to your loved ones,” he said
“I don’t really have loved ones. My parents are dead. I have a sister on the west coast but we are not close. I have a half brother i met once. No real friends. Acquaintances, i guess. I have no real connections. No one would miss me.” she said.
” you would be surprised. I am not sure that’s true,” he said. “Go away. ” she said.”you know i can’t do that. Look my daughters and i are going to get some ice cream. Why don’t you come with us and we can talk about it?” he asked?
“I have made my decision. I going to die today. ” she said.”if you died, do you know where you would go?” He asked. “I don’t know. I am not a bad person. Hopefully when the man upstairs weighs my good and bad, the good will outweigh the bad and he will let me into heaven. ” she said.
“That’s not how it works. The Bible says that all our works are as filthy rags. Much of the time we don’t choose between right or wrong but chose between right and good enough. Often we chose good enough. according to the bible is a sin. It is missing the mark. It is falling short of Gods standard. We all stand guilty before God. ” he said.
“Oh great. Why did there have to be a minister nearby?” She asked?”i prefer pastor.” He said.”i am sure you do.” She said. “Look let’s go talk. I have kids in the car,” he said. “They should not be heard. They should not see it. Just go. You’re not responsible for me!. if something happens, my blood will not be on your hands. ” she said.”it does not work that way. you know i will always regret it. I will always wonder what if. It too late i am involved. “He said.
“I dont want to go on. Whenever i end up, it will be better than this. I can’t go on. ” she said.”what is the source of all this? What is causing you to want to take your own life? ” he asked. “I was raped and stabbed. I am in constant pain. I can barely walk. I have p.d.s.t anxiety depression. I can’t sleep. I can’t go on. ” she said.
“Let’s go talk. I will help you anyway i can. We can work on this. I won’t leave your side. ” he said. “You say that now. You dont care about me. You only care about your conscience. You will leave and forget about me. You talk a good game reverend but you have no skin in the game. “She said.
“If you agree not to jump, i will mary you. I will have skin in the game. ” he told her.” you barely know me. I a bit of a nut job. ” she said. “I won’t leave your side.” He said. He extended his hand. She took it. “Ok. Don’t let me down!” She said. “I won’t,” he promised her.
She picked up her flip flops and put them on. They walked hand In hand to the van. “Girls this is..” He said. He realized that he did not know her name. “I am nakesha.” She said. “This is miss nakesha. She is going to join us for ice cream,” he said.
He drove the van to the ice cream store. He parked the van. The pastor and nakesha got out of the van. She opened the van. “What your name honey?” Nakesha asked.”is Nina I’m two,” she said. “Hi, Nina. It’s good to meet you. “Nakesha said. She picked her up. She held her.
He got Cayce and Macey out of the van. They held hands and formed a chain. They sat down. He took her order. He went and ordered. She got the girls seated. ” what are your names?” Nakesha asked. “I’m Macey.” The middle and said.”it Cayce” she said. “How old are you two?” Kesha asked.”i am 6 and mace is four.” The oldest said.
While the pastor waited for his order, he watched her interacting with his kids. She was so gentle with them. They seem to like her. He got his order. He brought the ice cream back. He gave the ice cream to nakesha. She thanked him.
“You believe i am a sinner?” She asked.”yes i do. Because i know all have sinned. I sin. I wish i did not sin but i do. ” he said. “You believe Christianity is the only way to God?” She asked.”i believe Jesus is the only way to the father. He said so. ” he said. “I assume you’re a widower?” She asked. “Yes she died shortly after Nina was born,” he admitted. “You don’t blame God for it?” She asked.” she did what she was supposed to do. Her time on earth was done. Would i have liked to have more time with her? Yes, i would. I am at peace with it. ” he said.
“You were never mad at him?” He asked.”not mad. I was upset. It was u expected. I did not get it. I never counted his goodness. I asked him why multiple times. Earth is not it. My citizenship is in heaven. I believe that. ” he said.
“Jesus is cool. I don’t know about him being exclusive,” she said. “He said he we the only way to the father. Why not take him at his word. Trust him.those justified live form one act of faith to another. ” he said.
“I see what you’re saying. How can you be sure? ” she asked. “I know what the Bible says is true. I know what the Bible says is true about me. I know God the Father loves me. I know his way is best. I have learned to trust him. “He told him.
“I can see that I am a sinner. Why do I have to do it Gods way? Why only one way?” She asked.”if your drowning and someone shows you a lifeline, do you complete that he is being exclusive. There is no other lifeline. No one else is offering a lifeline that will work. ” he said.
She thought about it. She felt she might not get another chance. There was a sense of urgency. “How can I be saved?” He took her through the gospel. She made a profession of faith that night.
After a time, they returned to the van.he drove her home. “Look. I am going to give you my number I am going to give you. my sister’s number. I promised that I would never your side. You need to do your part. You have a suicidal thought of Any kind you call me. You can’t get a hold of me you call my sister. You don’t stop until you get a hold of someone. Promise me!” He said.
“I promise,” she said. He hugged her. She hugged the girls. Both there lives had changed.
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The pastor introduces nakesha to a lady who struggled with depression. He gets her an engagement ring .Posted onJune 26, 2019Categoriesintervention, UncategorizedTagsbaptist fiction, baptist romance, children, Christian fiction, Christian romance, depression, fiction, pastor, romance, suicide, widowerLeave a commenton The intervention
siera grows in her faith. the pastor starts to think that they could have a future together .
Sierra was growing in her faith. Sierra became more and more active in the church. The church became more a part of her life and more a part of her.
Her sister Ashley had attended the church. She came every time the church was in session. She and she talked extensively about the lord. She was still not saved. She had been convinced but not converted.
Try as she might, she could not get past certain things. Sierra was patient. Sierra just kept talking to her. Ashley kept asking questions and kept attending.
It was in November shortly before Thanksgiving that Ashley made a profession of faith. After a Wednesday night service, Ashley told Sierra that she needed to get saved. She took. her through the gospel. She made a profession that night.
The pastor was thrilled when he learned that Ashley had made a profession of faith. He held discipleship classes for Ashley. He let sierra do much of the disciplining. She did much of the talking. He chimed in at times. He was impressed with Sierra. Sierra had taken this to heart. She was growing in her faith.
He feared that she had been an atheist in the foxhole. He feared that she might have just glommed on to something. Things were changing. Her faith was taking hold. He was beginning to think that this was a genuine conversion. He believed that she was really saved. He was thrilled by that.
He was thrilled to see her growing. She was becoming a leader in the church among women. God had his hand on her. That was clear.
He let her do most of the talking. Since she was saved she was a lot quieter. He wondered just how much she absorbed all of his sermons Judging what she was sharing during the discipleship course with ash, it turned out a lot. He was very impressed. She had taken this to heart.
Ashley grew in her faith. In many ways, Ashley was the pastors and Anne’s spiritual granddaughter.
She was growing. He feared that she might fall away but she had not. She was growing.he was thankful for that.
Thanksgiving was fast approaching. They had dinner just before the week of Thanksgiving. The pastor sat by Sierra and Navi. ” so the whole time I have known you, you have been single at least I think you have been?” She observed.
He smiled. ” yes I am single.” He said.”why are you single? You’re handsome .your mature. I am surprised that you are single she told him. “I was engaged once. We dated in college. She wanted to be a missionary and I wanted to pastor a church in America. We thought we could convince the other person. We were both determined to convince the other to join there point of view. Of course, that would do not happen. We tried to persuade the other to adopt our position. We both believed we were right. We decided to break it off. She is married with kids. They are serving overseas. It was an amicable breakup. I am happy for them. ” I said.
“You have not dated since then?” She asked. “No. I have not really been looking for. I have not been not looking. I am content. I still want to be married. ” he said.
“You will make a great husband and a great father. Navi adores you.” She said.”i think the world of her. “He told her. ” I can tell. You will. find someone. I know it. ” she said.
He was surprised by what she said. He thought that she was flirting with him. He did not mind. She acted like he would end up with someone else. He was surprised by that. He started to think that they were on a journey that ends up with there being married. She seemed to poopoo that.
“You will be a great wife. “He told her.” Oh, I am not going to be married.” she said. “Your not? ” he asked. “Come on, I am a single mom. Everyone knows I was unfaithful. U can’t do that to anyone. I can’t ask him to be faithful to someone who has not. I would want to marry someone who is more spiritual then I am. Someone who was saved a long time ago. It would be unfair to ask him to accept me as I am. I blew my chance. ” she said.
“Look what was in the past. It’s forgiven. It’s gone. the right man won’t care. He will love you no matter what. He will see past all that. ” he told her. “I can’t ask him to do that,” she said. “You won’t have to,” he said.
The conversation moved to something else. It got him thinking. Could she be the one. Could he marry her? He was beginning to think that he could marry her.
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The pastor goes to visit his parents and family for Christmas. Sierra spends time with her family but she calls him.Posted onJune 15, 2019Categorieschurch visator, UncategorizedTagsbaby, baptist, baptist romance, bible, christian, church, church dinner, desipleship, independent fundamental Baptist, pastor, service, single mom, visitorLeave a commenton Church visitor part 7
It was an ordinary night. It was an evening service at gospel baptist church. Nothing seemed different. It would be different.
It was a independent fundimental Baptist church. There was usualy fithty people in the morning and thirty at night. The pastor preached from the king james verson. They dressed up. They sang hymns and contemporary music. They were a few families and a few. Younger people but mostly younger people.
The attendants were the usual. Some were members. Some were attenders. The pastor was in his late twenties. The organist was playing music to set the mood.
The pastor called the service to order.he wore a suit and tie. He made the opening statements. He made opening announcement. As he was speaking,the door opened. A young lady entered. She wore a t shirt, jeens and flip flops. Her hair was in a ponytail. She had a car seat with a newborn baby with her. She tried to not make a scene. She made it to a seat.
Three days earlier, she had given birth. Her parents were not particularly religious. As a kid a church buss picked her up for Sunday school. She went for a few years but stopped going.
She had never realy considered going back. She did not not beleve but it was not a priority. Then she got pregnant. The farther had no interest in her or her child. She decided to have the child. Three days earlier,she gave birth to a healthy baby girl. Sunday morning she was stil tired.
She decided to go to church that night. Alot of churches only had morning services. She saw cars parked and the lights were on. She assumed that they had services. She parked. She walked inside. She hoped she had not missed too much. She only missed the opening remarks.
She sat down. She picked up her daughter. A lady who was a few years older then her came over to her. “Hi welcome to our church. ” she said. She thanked her.
He opened in prayer. Then the worship team came up. They sang four songs. Two were old hyims and two were song heard on christian music stations. The songs were nothing but the blood, church one foundation, one things remains and oh how he loves.
She was suprised that the pastor was in his late twenties. He did not wear a wedding ring. He seemed older. They did not take an offering but had an offering box in the back of the church.
He preached on the atonement of Christ. He started in genises three. He explained the fall of men and the promise deliverer and the sacrifice pictured by the lamb. He discused the crossing of the red sea and how it relates to salvation. He explained how Christ took our punishment at the cross. He tried to make it clear but simple. This was his planed message. He had felt an urgency in preaching it tonight but had no idea why until now. He closed the setvice with the song “in christ alone”
“This song says that the wrath of God is satisfied. God is angery at us because of our sin. We have all sin and come short of his glory . when jesus died on the cross, our sin’s penalty was paid for. His wrath is satisfied. ” he said. After they sang it, he prayed and dismissed the service.
The lady went over to her. “Hi i am anne. ” the lady said. “I am seara. This is navi. ” she said. “She is beautiful. ” anne said.
The pastor came in. “Hi welcome to gospel Baptist church. I am pastor Reynolds. “He said. “I am seara. This is navi. ” she said. He asked if he could hold her. She said yes..he picked her up. “Helo navi. How old is she? “He asked. “Three days old. ” she said. “She is healthy?” he asked. “Yes. She was seven lbs. Everything was good. ” she said.
“How are you?” he asked. “I am doing good. I am tired. Everything went good. “She said.”i am glad to hear that. Do you have a home church?” he asked.
“No i dont. I have not gone to church in a long time. I feel like i want to go. I started driving and saw you were having services. ” she said. “I am glad your hear. We have Sunday school at nine thirty, morning service at 10:45.evening service at six and Wednesday night at six thirty. We are a family. We would love if you come. We do have a nursery. That lady jane heads it up. If you want to keep her up hear no problem. That room is designed as a nursing room. It has a one way miror and speaker. “He said.
“Oh ok. ” she said. “Do you need anything, we have some extra diapers and some can goods and some baby cloths. ” he said. “No i am fine thank you. I am not hear for a hand out” she said. “Ok. If you need anything let me know ” he said. “Thank you. I appreciate that. ” she answered.
He held her daughter gently. She seemed content in his arm. A lady in the church took a picture of him and the baby. She had a feeling that this moment would be important to the pastor. She had a feeling that this litle girl would be important to him.
“Can i have you fill out a visitor card?”he asked. “Of course.” she said. Anne handed her the card and a pen.”you can keep the pen. ” he said. She filled it out.
“Do you have a bible? “He asked. “No i don’t. “She said. “I have some .we keep some on hand. Would you like one? “He asked. “I would. thank you.”she said. “On the front page,we have the church’s contact information. We have a website and i put my cell and the church’s number. Feel free to call if you have any question “he said. “Of course. “She said.
She completed the form and gave it to anne. Anne gave her a bible. She thanked her and took it.
“I should be going. I am going to feed her and put her to sleep. “She said.”ok.navi i am going to have to give you back to your momy. It was good to meet you. “He said.
He gave her back to her mom. Siera took her back. “I am glad you came. “The pastor said. “Thank you. “She said.
She went to her house. She fed her daughter and put her to bed. She took out her bible she read some of the verses the pastor referenced. She read genises three. She read romans three four and five.
That night she thought about what the pastor had said. The thoughts swam though her hand. The idea that all had sin and fell short of God’s standered made sence to her. The idea that jesus paid the penalty for her sin also made sense. She continued to think on it.
The pastor was glad she came. The pastor hopped that she would come back. He hoped that she would be saved. He would pray for her and navi. He felt a certain responsibility for them. He saw the people in the church as a family. He saw siera and her daughter as part of the church. And a part of the family.
Wendsday night was the midweek service. The pastor saw Siera’s call pull in. He went over to her. “Hi Siera. “He told her. “Helo pastor. “She said. “I can get navi if you want!” he said.”yes . Thank you. ” she said. He got the car seat. “Hi navi. ” he said.
They went inside. The church people greated her. Anne sat next to her. “It is good to see you. ” anne said. “Thank you.” she agreed.
He was doing a series on wendsday on key doctrines. This week was the diety of Christ. He tried to explane that Jesus is God. He discussed the incarnation. He tried to make it simple. He did not want to target siera in his messages. This was his planed mesege and she was hear.
She did not prayer during the prayer time. She listened as ann and those in the smal group of ladies prayed.
After the servive, the pastor held navi.”hi miss navi.” he said. Her family tried to get to her to go to one of the mega churches or one of the community churches. Bsptist could have a bad reputation. They were known for being old fashioned or strict. She liked the church. She was warned that baptist were judgemental. If they judged her, she saw no evidence of that.
“So do you get much sleep?” he Asked. “She wakes up at two and four. She usualy feeds back to sleep. It has not been too bad. “She said. “Thats good. ” he said.
She figured he would be super strict. He looked serious. He seemed stioc. He did not come off as bubbly. He was kind. He was soft spoken but not weak. He disarmed her. She respected him and she liked him. She trusted him.
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Siera continues to attend the church. She makes a decison. Posted onJanuary 10, 2019CategoriesUncategorizedTagsChristian fiction, Christian romance, church, fiction, independent fundamental Baptist, king James bible, love story, pastor, romance, serial, service, signle mom, signle pastor, visitorLeave a commenton The church visitor
a valentines day banquet produces an unexpected result.
Gospel baptist church hosted a signle and widows night. It was near valentines. They held one for couples later on but also near valentines. The church had a good number of couples and widows and signles. There was ebenough to have events for couples and another for widows- singles.
The singles event was orginized by mrs Lyons. Michele lyions was a wife and mom. She graduated from an independent fundamental Baptist college where she met her husbend. She was a stay at home mom. She had several unoficial ministeries. The singles and widows event had been her brain child. She looked froward to it every year. She realy got into it. She got everyone else excited about it as well.
“Pastor rolins. ” mrs. Lyions said. The pastor tried to avoid her as the day of the event dawned. “Helo Mrs lyions! “The pastor said. “Are you coming to the single widows diner this year?”she asked. “Oh i dont know. “He answered.
“My neice can babysit the girls. You have to come. You need to take a break. Let your hair down. Relax a bit.” mrs. Lyions told him.
“I know but i don’t know. “He told her.”you will enjoy it. It will be a lot of fun.there will be a lot of good food. Please come!” she admonished him.
“Alright i will come!” he said. “You wont regret it pastor”she said. He decided that he would stay a short time. He would not stay long or at least that was the plan. Pastor mathew rolins had been pastor of gospel baptist for five years.he was the son of a pastor. His family on both side included pastors,missionaries, evengelist and lay workers. Matthew attended fundamental Baptist univetsity. There he met his life Lisa. Lisa and him had three daughters,lacy, macy and lexie. Shortly after lexie was born,lisa was kiled in acar accident. He found himself a widow and a signle dad.
He took time off and slowly eased back into the church. He had a close knit relationship with his deacons who helped him with that process. He had the suport of nearby Baptist pastors who helped him however they could.
He slowly bounced back. By now, he was content. He was not quite back to himself but he was in a kind of new normal. The sadness made him a different person but in some ways a stronger leader. His ministry has grown from it. It was not easy or comfortible but with God’s help, he got through it.
Mrs. Lyions made her rounds. She tried to make sure that the singles would come. She hoped to have one hundred percent of singles and widow’s to attend. She would approach the widows and signles personally and make sure they commit to attending the event.
She came to Chrisy Eliot. Chrisy was 19 years old. She was the oldest of four kids. She had a 14 year old brother a ten year old sister and a five mounth old sister. She was home schooled. She was taking college courses though a bible college that operated out of a baptist church. She was very smart. She was mature.
“Chrisy!” mrs lyions said. “Helo mrs Lyons! ” she said. “Chrisy! I hope your coming to the sigles diner.” she said. Chrisy was reluctant to go. She was shy and reserve. She was signle. She wanted to be maried. Right now she was focused on her education.
“Yes i probably will.”she said. “It is going to be a lot of fun. It is not a paring off event i assure you. ” she said. Chrisy chuckled. “Ok” she said.
While the event was for singles and widows,and it was held near valentines, the perpose was not for couples to develop although that has happened. The stigma of it being for the purposes of pairing off discouraged some from attending. Mrs Lyons tried to prevent that from occurring. She tried to downplay that part.
On the day of the diner, mrs lyions and her team got to work seting things up. They set up table decorations and decoration on the wall. The way things work was that maried couples set up and put on the diner for the singles. Then for the maried couple diner, the single will set up and put on the event. The seting up went very well. Mrs lyions was pleased with how it turned out.
Pastor rolins was nervous. He had not attended one of these. Mrs rolins tried to get him to come but he had declined. He wanted to decline this year but decided not to. He was planing on putting in a presence then leaving.
Chrisy could have gone the year before but did not. She was not sure why she was coming this year. She decided why not. She wanted to come. She was nervous about it but wanted to do something different. Most of her days involved clases or her job so this was a nice change.
She wore a green blouse and a denim skirt and mary jane style shoes. She came in.
As soon as the baby sister arived he headed to the church. He wore a blue butoned down shirt and jeens. He took a deep breath before going inside. He figured that it would be fine. It was one night.
He and his wife attended the event for maried coyples. They helped put on the single one. It brought back memories but he tried to look passed it. He tried to stay calm. His social anxiety was kicking in.
There were multiple sigles who were members or faithful attenders. There were some singles from other independent fundamental Baptist churches. A lady from a like minded church came over to him. “Helo. Pastor. ” the lady said. “Helo, its beth right “he remarked. “Yes” she said.
It was clear that she was interested in him. He found her to be a bit too eager. If he did get into a relationship, he wanted it to hapen naturally. He did not want it to be forced.
He talked to her for a bit. Then the event was about to start. He walked to a safe distance from beth. Mrs lyions got everyone’s attention. She made announcement. She welcomed everyone and explained the procedures. She Asked the pastor to pray for the food. He did so.
After the prayer, everyone got in line.there were two lines. The food was a buffet style. There was lasagna and chilie and other foods. Chrisy had goten her food before the pastor did.
The pastor got his food and looked for a place to sit. He saw Chrisy. He decided that sitting next to chrisy was a safe option. She was boy crazy. He figured that sense she was young, she was not a candidate to be his wife. He decided to sit next to her.
“Helo chrisy. ” he said. She smiled.”Helo pastor. How are you tonight? “She asked. “I am good. How are you?” he asked. “I am doing good. This is the first time i went to this. I was invited last year but decided not to. I was unsure about this year. I decided to come after all. “She remarked.
“This is my first year. I went to the one for maried couples when lisa was alive. I could not bring myself to go to the signle one the last couple of years.mrs lyions incist it is not a place for dating. It does involve food and i do like to eat. ” he said. “The food is realy good. Our church is blesed with plenty of good cooks. ” she said. “Very true. Why were you reluctant to come?” he asked. “Well, i am 19. I was 18 last year. I am one of the youngest adults in the church. I am not really looking to date. Not right now. Someday. If it is not a dating event then i am open to it. It is nixe to have a day to do something different. “She said.
“I am not ready to date again. When lisa died, i was not even thinking about thinking about dating let alone remary. Right now, i am open to it but i am not looking for someone right now. “He admitted.
Other people sat Down at the same table. “How are you doing pastor? “She asked.”thank you so much for asking. I am in a good place. I am stil not back to the place i was before but i am content. I have found joy in the lord again. “He said.
“Well i noticed a change in your preaching. I have noticed you seem to have a zest for life again. It all began around the time you preached though romans. ” she said.
“I dont feel like an excited joy but i know exactly what you meen. I was numb for a realy long time. I was in shock. It was slightly before i started preaching though Romans that i felt that zest for life again. ” he said.
“It could not have been easy. Being alone and being a single parent. ” she commented. “No it was not. I was mourning but i wanted to be there for the girls. ” he said. “You handled things realy well. “A lady chimed in.”the church has been great. “He said.
“We are glad you and your kids are hear. We are glad that you did not quit. “Chrisy said. “I wanted to run away. I did draft a resignation leter but i felt the lord wanted me hear. The deacons were amazing including your dad. I was able to ease back in. The whole church has been a blessing. ” he said. A man said that he had been a blessing to them.
“I am glad you stayed. You are a great fit for our church. “She said.”i like being hear. I dont want to be any where else. I am committed to being hear as long as the lord and the members permit me to be hear. It took me a while to get to that point. “He said.
“So do you think you will remary some day?” she asked. “I am open to it.i dont know. I would have to be convinced that it is the lord’s will. I would want her to be comfortible with my kids and vice versa. I would want her to be wiling to be a stay at home mom.i know i would be asking a lot. That would be nonnegotiable. It will be hard for them to acept. We would both have to be fully persuaded of this. “He said.
“Do you have criteria for who you would mary?” she asked. “She would have to like kids and acept us as a package deal. I want her to be king james prefered. Believe in separation. Dreses or skirts preferable. Contemporary music is fine but i would want her to be someone who believes in Baptist separation. So do you want to be married? “He asked.
“I do. I am not realy actively looking. I do want that. My parents have a loving relationship. Both sets of grandparents have been maried for a long time and have left a positive mark on myself and my siblings. I would love what they had. ” she admitted.
“What are you looking for in a husband? ” he asked. “I want a godly spritfiled man. I want a protector comforter. I want someone with a bit of a sense of humor. I would like to mary someone that is at a higher spritel level then me. Mayby someone who is a bit older. Someone in some kind of ministry like an asistent pastor or someone who is on the staff of a Christian camp or has been a sumer missionary. I want an independent baptist. I am ok with someone who listens to ccm. ” she said.
“I see. It seems you have thought this over. Those are good thoughts. ” he said. “So how will you know? ” she asked. “I would have to be so sure. It would have to be so evident. I would have to have it confirmed though the bible and though prayer. We would both have to be convinced together. “He said. “That makes sense. “She said.
“Would you want to be totally sure?” he asked. “Yes i would. It is a huge decision. It is one that effects a person’s whole life. This is especially true for a wife. Perhaps in some ways more so. ” she said.
“I can understand that. I agree. I respect that. You are an impresive young lady. You have realy grown both in maturity and sprituely. The holy sprit has his hand on you. I know he had begun a good work in you and will complete it in the day of christ. ” he said.
“Thank you. That meens a lot. ” she said. “You are an important part of this church. “He said.”like i said i am glad that you are the pastor hear. “She said.
After a while, the diner came to a close. The pastor walked her to her car. “It was good talking to you. Sory you had to hang out with the old guy.”he said. “I did not mind. It was good talking to you. “She said. The two dispersed.
A lot of people saw the two talking. A lot of people began to think that they could be a potential couple. Talk of a wedding already was buzzing.
Matthew came home. It was not until the next day it hit him. On sunday, he was having his morning devotional time. He was praying. It hit him like a ton of bricks. He prayed for Chrisy. He asked the lord if he was supposed to mary her. He felt a peace. He wanted to explore it further.
She went home. Her family teased her. She smiled the whole night. “How did it go?” her dad asked. “Really good” she answered. She did not want to say too much. It was a small church. She knew word would get out.
“It was a good night?” her dad asked.”yes it was. ” she said. “Did you talk to anyone? ” her mom asked. “I just talked to the pastor mostly. We were both trying avoiding potential sutors. We both are not ready to get together with anyone romanticaly. ” she said.
“Wait! You hung out with the pastor?”her brother asked. “Yes. We both just wanted to enjoy the meal no so much the romantic part. ” she said.
That night, she engaged in her devotional time. She went to bed. She wondered if mayby they had a future together. She was not sure. She thought that it was a strong posibility. Next up
Chrisy and mathew dont know what to do next. They consider there next steps.
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